This book for me meant quite a lot when I was reading it as I honestly felt a connection with Paul. He goes through lust for an older man who disappears and he never sees again but will always want after. A love that is more of a secret betrayal which he is aware of and embraces. And more. This is his life and I felt so close to him it unnerved me. This book deals with the fallout of lust, love, loss and life from a mans perspective and one with a fluid sexuality. I highly recommend this book as it is such a beautiful read and open and honest. Left me wanting more.